I can finally say publicly, we’ve won the Oxford Samuel Beckett Theatre Trust Award, and will have a run at the Barbican’s Pit Theatre in late 2018. I’m relieved and honoured to have the financial and practical support of the Barbican going forward. It’s an incredible privilege.
I want to say thank you to everyone who came along to our sharing two weeks ago, it was great fun and super useful presenting the work to you. It could be said that your energy and presence in that room deserve an element of credit for this award. We’d love to hear any thoughts ruminating in your heads, any time.
I want to say thank you to the partners, friends, and relatives of JAMS, for your love and support. You know who you are. My love to you.
Events in my private life preclude me from being ecstatically happy right now, but suffice it to say, I’m extremely excited to get on with this and spend 2018 literally playing with fire.
I quit making theatre in late-2016. I’d had enough. I felt disheartened, futile, rejected, jaded and depressed. I told a few of you, ‘2017 I’ll be focusing on poetry, fiction’ and I did, but then I got the email from Barb. I’m fortunate – our work appealed to a particular set of mysterious variables so the panel of judges chose us. Am I any more or less of a performance maker now that we’ve got this prize? No. Is anyone else more or less of a performance maker for not having it? No. It’s an incredible opportunity, and there is admittedly a great (dangerous?) feeling of validation and approval. But really our work is just as valid as it was a month ago. I’m saying this in case anyone reading is feeling as futile, rejected, jaded or depressed as I was last year, let alone my occasional jealousy over friends’ successes. This is hard, vulnerable, precarious work. Take a break if you need to. Redouble your efforts if it feels right. Take care of yourself. Your work, your endeavours, are valid and worthwhile, regardless of external accreditation. Easy for me to say right now, sure, but it’s always true.
From left to right, Alan Fielden, Malachy Orozco, Sophie Grodin, Jemima Yong.
Photo Credit – Helen Murray